Can’t win for losing

I created some basic self-care checklists to inspire myself to…care, I guess. My kid has never been a star-chart kind of person, but I find it satisfying and helpful to cross things off lists. Periodically, I try to care for myself at close to the same level I teach her to function: eat healthy meals, exercise, brush your teeth, etc. I made it 13 days this time, until last night I intentionally went to bed without brushing my teeth because…dammit, I didn’t want to. I don’t want to take care of this stupid body. I identify waking up with gummy eyes and gross breath as being rebellious, independent, adult.

Sometimes that’s the best/only self-care I can muster.